Much Awaited Break

For me a break was actually required.. i was suffering frm asthenopia....
and was tooo stressed out....
so took an off on Saturday and lived the day the way as i wanted to...
woke up at 11:30 AM..(tooo close to be PM... :)), loitered arnd my messy home,which was cos of the prolonged construction cum renovation going on...

Than got bugged up at home and went to chachu's place ... And i tell you KIDS and DOG's are your best time pass....
My Di runs her creche,so i keep visiting there, and kids there recognises me, and on Saturday trust me i had a galla good time.. we played hide n seek, dark room.. kitchen-kitchen and many other games... for sometime i forgot my age and felt almost like a kid.. one wud not believed i almost had a fight wid my di's son(mind u he is jus 10yrs old) cos he was cheating...
and later i was thinking- Mitali!! GROW UP!! i mean fighting wid a small kid...though that doesn't suits u... but i cud'nt help...

Came bck home in the evening, Spoke with HIM.. chatted wid HIM... and again started thinking, does he really wants me to be with him or its just me who is intruding in his peaceful life..
I really have soo many questions to ask him, need so many answers but just dont knw how and wen to start...
i always feel like starting the conversation but get sacred... sacred to loose him ... and make fool of myself and my feelings...
cos telling my heart out, I feel he is not even a tinch bothered, whether am waiting for him or not, we speak or not... am sure he doesnt even think abt me...
"i just dont knw wat brought us together and it is actually till date unspoken,wat will hold us together and till wen ,is killing me.. e'day i sleep n wake up with a thought wen things btn us wil be worn off or broken...
Even if our ways were different i felt as if they were mine (that's y i was worried how he'll get his passport,he shud not leave his office while its raining as he was already suffering frm cold n cough, I knw it must be sounding stupid, but its me ... and i cant really help, i knw it must be bugging him a lot, but will try to control, for sure.) but i actually Don't want our paths to cross, but ya just waiting for my time....... (and his signal or answer)"

Ne ways, to continue.... Than at night i watched- Sweet November, Top gun and Notting Hills and slept at 4 in the morning and on Sunday woke up at 12 :p ... AHA.. and adding to my surprise my mom didnt scold me ... yo yoyoyoyooy ....
and went to the parlour for a body massage and tit bits of other wrks.... came home and slept..
was soo damm relaxing...
Evening again i spent with kids... had lotsa fun... played "ice n water" and danced with them .. taught them nursery rhymes... went out ot eat Icecream... came bck home took shower a 10PM....... Spoke with HIM and went off to sleep at 1AM...
Ah.. gud two days .... quite relaxing..

Now, since boss is on leave for 2-3 days... mee goin home again and will sleep....
Bye bye.... catch u all frm home ....