Office.. OFFICE .. office...

Office ... and office politics .... just too bugged of it !! huh!

wat the hell people here think of themselves...
u knw people here think that they are the best, rest e'one is stupid wrking here ..
ya waise its a fact.. workin wid such people, is actually an stupidity...
LUMP of SHIT people wrk here
total Ghatti stuff.. frustrated buddha's.. gud for nothing ...
"ghar se laad ke aate hain aur gussa yahan nikalte hain."

Damit you make the changes in SAP, mere ko sapna aa raha hai ki u cancelled the entries...
u dont even bother to inform me .. how do expect me to bother...
and now if ask boss to make it official... toh sabke jalegi... Haadd hai yar!!
Bugged up!! of office Politics...
damm if my Super boss favours me why ru bothered.... u dont wrk only thing u do is to dig out my mistakes and let me down in frount of boss... who later call me in personal and clearifies it all... F**K man its disgusting.. its sad to see people who r so experienced doing such things... and wid me who is the jounior most... (tenure wise).
i know this is the same story in every office ... but it wasnt the same in IBM... we had such wonderful people to wrk wid... Joy, Shafu,Babu..Nirlipt... infact e'one was so helping n caring...

And another thing that rritates me the most, people here use Ladies toilet, u read it rite..Men use Ladies Toilet and dont lift the rim.. and make it wet... sala ghoom ghoom ke pee karte hain kya... Sha!! its so dammm irritating...

and udhar.... woh Dubai guy .... ah!! gettin on my nerves now... he is carrying so many high hopes ki kya bataun..
wish kal message karke .. honoymoon destination na bataye...

Chalo gettin late for home ... head is aching ... ah!! need a break...

Ambition v/s Family...

I was chatting wid a guy today who was keen to know about me.. ah!! dont laugh.. I did gave him statutory warning, not to wake up the sleeping ME, but ...................................nah!! he didint agree... "aab keeda kiya hai toh jheelo",
so, a seed for all new hot discussion was sowed ...

discussion se pehle ek short intro abt the guy... He the same guy,abt whom i refered in my previous post... the who calls my dad "papaji".. :D (aab dont laugh yar!!, kissi ke emotions ya phir loose motions hain, nikalne do) neways... now the discussion begans...

he pings me on Gtalk.... "Mitali ji, wants to talk wid u s'thing important", i got scared....damm dad se kuch baat toh nahi hue... neways out of courtesy i replied "hainji bolo"... and.... he started...
Oh!! i forgot ... to add another story... last evening he msg'ed me askin me to "reduce weight", till now i was ok but, REDUCE WEIGHT atleast 10 kgs.... ah!! damit ... was gud he wasnt here...
and as a cherry on the cake .... he is asking me to ask my dad to match our kundali's so that we can proceed further.... it alomost killed me .............
infact wen he said i wanna talk wid u ... i was prayin, better he doesnt start abt the weight thing ... else he going get the best of his day.........

but he was lucky he started wid another Hot topic...
so he wrote, "u know ihav always think tht my wife must b career oriented n ambitious"
and i said "OK, tats gr8...", so
he wrote " but u said once upon, (and i was wonderin... Once upon a time wen i was a kid........), tat u dont wanna work after u get married."
i was AH!! for the 1st time i wished... yeh V-sat link down kyun nahi hota ...
but still i said... i shud answer his question... so i wrote... "its not like tat, i do wanna wrk, but am not ambitious.."
than he said, y not ambitious...
and my answer was... (i dont know how many people will agree wid me ... ) "I can either be a gud homemaker or an ambitious professional."
And this sentence, made me re-think am i rite in wat am saying... Cant i be... a sucessful professional, rather Ambitious professional and a nice and sucessful homemaker as well...

After pondering over it for a long time ... i came to an conclusion... NO, I cant... cos once i'll get ambitious,wantingly or unwantingly i'll neglect my family to reach the top...
For NXT generation gals or women, i might be sounding orthodox... but this is wat i feel.. i carry values of a vry middle class family ... so i think in this manner....
Today the competetion is so much and life in metro's and even abroad is running at supersonic speed... tat it becomes so difficult to manage ur kids and ur job at certain point of time ... (am talkin as if, how many kids i have rared and dont knw how many marriage i have made)
I feel if ur ambitious, be single and get wat u want..
because as a women.. almost all the time, u'll have to compromise either for ur hubby or for ur family or may be for ur profession... and am sure any ambitious women will not go for it ...
SO wat i think ... keep workin till u can, get wat ur getting and be happy ... rather than cribbing for wat u might have got. if u wouldnt have had ur 1st baby or may be marriage for that matter...

Its our culture that a gal needs to marry ... and our parents since our birth,keeps on planning abt our marriage (our refers to women community), kindda guy there daughter need, kinda in-laws they she wud b haapy wid ... etc etc... and listening all this we grow up and some where we are mentally prepared for it as well...
so, why not to accept it and live happily ... after all my mom also gave up her studies and profession for me and my bro... and my dad also had to give up some lucurative postings for our studies.. so why cant i do it for my kid...

So i dont knw to what extend am rite ... but its just tat the way i think and feel... after all this a place for my thoughts... is'nt it??

Learnt a lesson again !!!

Ya !! i did
yesterday.. i thought, i learnt a new lesson, and today it was officially confirmed!!

And the moral of the story/lesson was, " DAMIT !!! U HAVE TO AND FOR SURE HAVE TO BE PRETENTIOUS IN FROUNT OF EVERYONE... mind u EVERYONE. !! "
there is noone as a good friend... as Mother,as father... am not saying any thing for my Bro, as till date he is wid me!! but still dont have any exceptation.
To be frank.. i dont carry any false notion of excepting things from poeple...
but, fortunately or unfortunately,(iam still confused), at times you meet such people in life and at such a juncture wen u need s'one to be nxt to you and u come close...
i think the same happened wid me,last week.. and how stupid of me, i again forgot, I DONT DESERVE it, Absolutely not...

Till the time you r coochi-coochi wid the person..he is there wid you, but even if by mistake you start to share things or send him a signal that you might call for a commitment, phissss !!! he is gone... gone wid the wind...
I knw its not the problem wid the person there, its all here wid me...the me which is hidden, and for many people its unexplored!! it think i shud now except the fact no one can take the real ME, who might be too raw to be sweet.. ya Damit i abuse, abuse a lot,but tat doesnt mean i dont respect me elders and atleast am not pretentious like other gals woh act like vry decent ones and actually are not!! ...
If i keep my Gmail tag line to be- Nobody Dies Virgin, Life F***s us All.. tat doesnt mean am a characterless gal!! or wat ever.. i just fail to u'stand this psyche.

And as wat i have learnt frm last week.. will make sure from now no more truth teller,the hidden and unexplored me will be wid me only, be it anyone.. YA ANYONE....

You know(dont knw who is YOU here, but didnt get any other word to start the sentence, neways,) Since the day i have decided to settle down, am facing such an absurd and irritating situations that the whole idea to look for a perfect partner or infact just a partner wud do for me ... (cos rest i knw i can take care off (:P)), giving me such an set bck that its has now made me re-think on my decision...

The first was the ASSh*** from Kolkatta, bloody jerk...

than I find s'one who absolutely DHAKKAN(in my lang), to whom i cant stand for a even a sec,so just forget abt spending the life time ... HUH

i forgot to mention about, Another specimen, to whom my sweet dad gave my no... has only to boast abt him self and keeps on givin GYAN to me... how to reduce weight, wat i shud do in my life, wat time to get up... wat time to sleep.. and ya not to forget he calls my dad "PAPAJi",after all this, am just waiting to listen my kids names !!!(frm his perspective OUR) AH!!! give me a space damit.......

than wid whom i get comfy, he wants to have close relationship, to know me better(its just a decent way to say,"lets have sex baby")and i start wondering to how many gals he must be sharing such "CLOSE TALKS". which again puts me off... i want to make guys knw.. there is life beyond Sex...
Out of the lot i did like one person... but again forgot, he was no different from the rest...

So now time for some vry open CONFESSIONS,(infact they are not confessions exactly, they are ME absolutely ME)
So here it goes....

• I have Boozed n Fagged
• I Abuse..and abuse badly...
• I cant take ingorance
• I dont wanna hide anything frm anyone,but i think i'll have to as noone u'stands
• I did had an affair....
• I dont want the other person to lie wid me, even if he doesnt like any thing abt me plz plz tell me straight away

Apart from all this- I know how to respect my elders, mind you wat iam wid my family am not like wid e'one...
I knw how to handle my professional and personal life together ...

i dont knw why am doing this, plz dont take it to b a advertisement of mine... for a perfect marraige material, but all wat i mean to say is .. "ALL WAT U SEE OR PERCIEVE IS NOT CORRECT,IF AT TIMES U GO OR DO WRONG, IT CUD BE ONCE SITUATION OR MENTAL STATE, WHICH HAS MADE HIM/HER TO DO DO.!! "(This is wat i believe)

So before coming to any conclusion, keep ur self in others shoe and try to think why that person had to do that ... and if u were at that persons place in same situation how u wud have reacted, if u wudnt have done the same than u have the right to disagree...

I think i sud stop it now cos now my hed will break into pieces out of pain..but feeling better... few things which i had to say i have said...

Do i really have Life of my own!!

Ya tats the question am searching the answer for, since my childhood... (my childhood!! huh!! ... wen i look back i cud hardly recollect any thing to say, MY CHILDHOOD)
Do i really have a life... which i call its MINE...

Right now, am full of frustration and anger.. neither i have s'one wid whom i can share that
nor i cud find any tall building where i can go and shout at top of my voice over the roof top.. (w.r.t Metro).

Am in such a dilemma, neither i can discuss my thoughts wid any one nor iam able to keep it to myself... i wonder why one has to go thru it?

Its not like,i dont have any Friends, i Do have but am sure noone will u'stand it from my perspective, andi wont blame them... for not u'standing me,they have seen very different aspect of me... an also they havent faced wat i have gone thru in past few yrs...
Wat ever ihve seen and gone thru has made me wear a mask.. mask of showing off people am too happy wid wat iam into... showing off my smile and not to forget my happy-go-lucky nature..
My friends often calls me and shares there troubles wid me ... and to my surprise iam able to console them and make them u'stand wat actually they want and they shud do... (am i rite Rats)
But fail to do it to myself...

Look i started cribbing again....

I am really fed-up of few things... i wish i cud change... there is so much of turmoil going on with in me... Damm!!! can some tell me how to let it all out..

rite now few lines coming to my mind ....
they are from the moive Umraojaan(Old one):

" jab bhi milti hai mujhe ajnabi lagti kyon hai

zindagi roz naye rang badalti kyon hai t

tum se bichhade hain to ab kis se milati hai hamein

zindagi dekhiye kya rang dikhati hai hamein "

Review... Life in a METRO...

Went to watch ... METRO, yesterday...
Nice movie, can watch one.. typical Anurag Basu, Stuff.. quite bold scenes and dialogues..
and not to forget amazing Music...

Movie starts wid a song "IN Dino", it abt search for Love ...


and than "Alivida" another amazing song... tells abt ... u lost e'thing in a go without your realisation...

the Plot of the movie is gud .. few scenes are amazing, esp the one in which Irfan Khan takes Konkana Sengupta to the roof top of a building and asks her to shout at top of her voice to went out her anger.. and after 1-2 tries she shouts and he says,"Good job, your servicing is done. Now live on with life."

and ya not to forget ... another classic one... it happens wen Konkana realises her love for Irfan and goes to propose him on his wedding day and he says " Par sare Blouse n patticote toh usske naap ke ban gaye hain, pehle nahi bol payi thi".Mast dialogue tha!! even wen rajeev told me he also saw that movie today.. this was the first dialogue we shared... :)

One more dialogue i like it was quite a senti one...
wen dharmandra is sitting out side the morgue to take Nafisa's deadbody.. he says " hum better pane ke liye, kuch bahut imp peeche chor (leave) jate hai." i felt tats is really vry true... esp in my case ...

In all, as i said above ... Nice movie.. it tells u the another face of world, esp to the people who are not too exposed..

Perfomance of e'one was upto the mark... i liked KK menon.. as always..
Shilpa Shetty was looking Sexy ... Kanagana was lookin better in straight hair than her maggi noodle style..Sarman Joshi..lookin Cute as in RDB.. his performance has improved many folds...
i love Konkana Sen gupta' innosence in the movie esp wen she asks shipla shetty " di, is it Ok to lose your virginity before marriage".. Ah...
Irfam was too sweet... s'one who was too raw to be liked by a women...
At times Dharmendra bugged but Nafiasa Ali is lookin gud .. seems age could not tampered wid her beauty..

Last but not the least, I loved the Music of the moive... simply felt in love wid the song "In Dino", infact all the songs are very Aptly placed... people arnd me was gettin iritated the way songs were picturised, even Rajeev said "i felt like givin them few coins as they seems to me like beggers", it was quite rude,but i liked it somehow as it was different from contemporary playbck singing rather i shud say Lip singing...

AH... its all for now....
going for lunch.. bahut kaam ho gaya aab bhook lagi hai...

And now waitin wen my boss is away to NOIDA nxt so that i can manage to watch "Shoot out at Lokhandwala" another much hyped movie... hope to have s'thing gud to watch ..


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GUESS who is Who?

Dad gave me few Id's to check, so was browsing through www.jeevansathi.com and see wat i found out...

Shud i call it hillarious or just another network glitch...

now if u get any proposal frm Jeevansathi, so b sure whom ur marrying...

hope its not a guy askin another to marry... heheheheh ;)

now, am scared wats gonna happen to my profile there.... lets me see .... hah!!

Wonder Why All gud things ends up wid Tears...

I really wonder why, all gud things ends up wid tears... fail to understand, are they tears of joy or loosing s'one close...

AHHH.... this is wat is haunting me since iam back from moli's wedding.
Yep another friend of mine got married.

It was great fun in her wedding .... was able to see how every religion has it own rituals and
there importance as well....

and was surprised, all of us almost same kindda rituals but yet tooo different, is tats the reason why we are called a country wid diversities.

I noticed few things there -- like the bond which is created btn the bride n groom while they are performng the rituals the jaimals,the phera's etc.... it really brings the couples close to each other ... and that why i think the Indian marriages last longer (as i felt.. not vry sure, some might find it illogical ) ....
and also the feel that your daughter or sister or friends or be it any other relation is now a part of s'one else and will have to be wid him forever, and also, now all these relations will be shared by one more person.. and i think tats wat brings tears....

But on other hand, we happy she is steppin into a new world. A world of her own, where she is the boss. And ya, not to forget wid loads of responsibilities to carry.

And to be frank, am really sacred of these .... so called "RESPONSIBILITIES."

May be am not ready to take this yet or is it, wid time one accepts it.

Lets see wat my destiny hold for me :)

But apart from every things else, I wish all the luck for my frnd...

Wish to b mausi soon..... Hey moli dont kill me for this... accha discount diya exams tak... hehehheee..

Love you babes.. and will Miss u tooo Much...

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