After long I went for a birthday party today...
and that to one which was celebrated at home,cos now a days celebrating b'days at home has become rare, even parents want to send there kids to a restaurant for the party, they dont want to mess up the house and spend the whole night cleaning up the same...
It felt nice to see that few parents still like to do such things for there kids...
Talking of me, i dun even remember wen last my b'day was celebrated at home... all i remember is a fight wid dad over my birthday party, and my birthday is the most unfortunate day of my life... for past 4 yrs all unfortunate things happen on tht day.. for eg- one yr i lost my new mobile, nxt yr i fractured my leg,another year i lost my wallet, and this year i was all alone on that day.. no one to celebrate my b'day wid...
At times i really feel the urge to be wid s'one, s'one especial, one wid whom u can spend some memorable time, share some nice wrds, if he is wid u u can hold his hand,or its not necessary that, he shud be me.. but ya just an assurance that i have s'one who loves me and will be there for me forever does the needful...
I was sitting outside Spice mall near my office in NOIDA, and was watching various couples freekin out, few were goin to watch movie together,some were shopping and few who didnt had there beloved with them were talkin over the phone and saying "Missing you." was heart touching..
And i was sitting alone just observing them.... and was thinking,no matter how platonic there relationship are but atleast till they are together they are happy... no one knows wats going to happen tomorrow but atleast whenever they'll sit bck and remember this time they'll have a sweet memory and a smile on there face...
At least there will be no one here like me, who is living in uncertainty, i dont even get a reply wen i say "i miss you" to HIM....am not complaining to him tht h shud be doin such things...
I knw he doesn't feel the same way as i do... but i'll wait till i can.... all i can say is -“It's getting to the point where I am no fun anymore, I am sorry. / Sometimes it hurts so badly I must cry out loud, ' I am lonely.' -I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are, you make it hard."
Till than i can just sit and see rest of the world enjoying.... or i can just make my training manuals, on which iam wrking these days.... :) ... i think its only wrk-wrk-wrk n wrk, is wat, stored for me and than i realise - “It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely.”
and than i read somewhere which is worth sharing - “I've got everything I need except a man. And I'm not one of those women who thinks a man is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone.”
and that to one which was celebrated at home,cos now a days celebrating b'days at home has become rare, even parents want to send there kids to a restaurant for the party, they dont want to mess up the house and spend the whole night cleaning up the same...
It felt nice to see that few parents still like to do such things for there kids...
Talking of me, i dun even remember wen last my b'day was celebrated at home... all i remember is a fight wid dad over my birthday party, and my birthday is the most unfortunate day of my life... for past 4 yrs all unfortunate things happen on tht day.. for eg- one yr i lost my new mobile, nxt yr i fractured my leg,another year i lost my wallet, and this year i was all alone on that day.. no one to celebrate my b'day wid...
At times i really feel the urge to be wid s'one, s'one especial, one wid whom u can spend some memorable time, share some nice wrds, if he is wid u u can hold his hand,or its not necessary that, he shud be me.. but ya just an assurance that i have s'one who loves me and will be there for me forever does the needful...
I was sitting outside Spice mall near my office in NOIDA, and was watching various couples freekin out, few were goin to watch movie together,some were shopping and few who didnt had there beloved with them were talkin over the phone and saying "Missing you." was heart touching..
And i was sitting alone just observing them.... and was thinking,no matter how platonic there relationship are but atleast till they are together they are happy... no one knows wats going to happen tomorrow but atleast whenever they'll sit bck and remember this time they'll have a sweet memory and a smile on there face...
At least there will be no one here like me, who is living in uncertainty, i dont even get a reply wen i say "i miss you" to HIM....am not complaining to him tht h shud be doin such things...
I knw he doesn't feel the same way as i do... but i'll wait till i can.... all i can say is -“It's getting to the point where I am no fun anymore, I am sorry. / Sometimes it hurts so badly I must cry out loud, ' I am lonely.' -I am yours, you are mine, you are what you are, you make it hard."
Till than i can just sit and see rest of the world enjoying.... or i can just make my training manuals, on which iam wrking these days.... :) ... i think its only wrk-wrk-wrk n wrk, is wat, stored for me and than i realise - “It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely.”
and than i read somewhere which is worth sharing - “I've got everything I need except a man. And I'm not one of those women who thinks a man is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone.”
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