6 yrs of imprisonment, after 14 yrs of crime.... Ah!!

So finally, after 14yrs, verdict against Sanjay Dutt was given by High Court today....
6 years of imprisonment and fine of Rs 25000,

It was tragic... somehow i wasnt convinced with the courts verdict...
somewhere at the corner of my heart i didnt want him to be punished.... he had already spent 16 months in Jail earlier... i think that was enough for him to realize his mistakes..

And wat was the point of punishing someone after 14yrs.. i mean after 14yrs the people wud have forgotten e'thing and wud have started a fresh...

I personally feel he is paying off cos of his celebrity status... if it wud have been any other person, like a gangster or any politicians son, he wud have got an easy escape....

I was touched by the conversation of his daughter and literally had tears in eyes wen she said, "DAD am there for you always... "
i mean,any kind of penality wud have been enough to punish him but not imprisonment for sure,and seems he wasnt given any benefit of his probation period... and his good character ( i dun knw wat he does in personal life but am talking abt his public conduct)

I can still visualise him shivering when judge was giving him the verdict.... and his family esp his daughter ....

This was sad... if court had to punish him it wud have dun it within 1-3 yrs of his crime.... nit after 14yrs, wen the criminal and people effected have moved far ahead in there respective lives...
Am for sure keeping my fingers crossed for vedict by Supreme court...

Loo Legacy

Just dont think am too facinated by LOO.. rather I read an amazing fact in The Week ,

In Tokyo Police are flummoxed by the envelopes of 10,000 Yen (approx $82) bills popping up in toilets in government offices....

These bills are wrapped in "washi" paper with the word "remuneration" scribbled on it.. and it also has a formal letter, which says, tht the givers hopes that the money donated will be used for" your pursuit of knwledge."
Since April.... over $32720 has been found...
Police is wondering is it any elderly man giving away his legacy or any prankster.........

Ah!! i mean wat to comment now.........
the heights of crazy people in this world....

But ya one thing is for sure ... our police will never be this lucky, cos our govt hasnt given them a chance... as we dun have many public Loo's and those we have are soo dirty that any elderly man will go to donate, will die of stink there ... :P or any prankster will try something else than entering those Loos.. infact entering those LOos will be an adventure for him.... wat do ya say ?.... hehehehhehe......... :D

Am on cloud 9

So after long roller coaster ride, past week, i finally i got my promotion... YEPPIEEEEEE..... I GOT PROMOTED!!! will soon be joining our core team in MUmbai....
So mumbai finally iam coming.......
It really feels gr8... a sense of achievement....

but what i really hated was dirty politics........
and stupid HR people of my office, i mean, for employees who r working for 4-5 yrs... u need a written exam to prove ur caliber, followed by a round of GD and interview......

i agree with the idea of taking GD n interview....... but somehow i couldn't digest the idea of written exam... still i appeared for it ... and trust me studying after long time was really a difficult task..
studying networking, reasoning, aptitude questions, and above all math's....(which almost killed me), but since i promised my boss will not let his confidence down, i did it for him...
and am happy that i didn't let his confidence go down.....

I got 97% marks.... how i got it am still wondering ....
And on Top of that my Director Operations Mr. S.C Gupta, personally called my boss and told him,she is a gal with lot of potential, why u have kept her in Lucknow office.... :), she shud immediately move to our Core Procurement Team in Mumbai, which is headed by Anil Ambani, in reverse auctioning team...
It was a big-big thing for me....

But my boss wants me to Join IT's Core team and be in SAP
Lets see wat finally i get... waiting eagerly for my letter......

To b frank i was confident abt my interview n GD, Till date no one has ever rejected me after my interview... but was too scared abt written exam... and am happy i was able to get thru..
The paper was set by an IIT-Delhi lecturer, so had the reason to be scared.. cos e'one knws how bad am in Maths... but paper was based on practical problems, so it became easy to attempt..

In nut shell------ ALL IS WELL, THAT ENDS WELL

Missing u Bro...

Mom was telling me the other day, time slips like sand... and am feeling it today...
Bhai was here for 2mths and went back day before y'day.. now missing him tooo much....

Past two months went off like lightening speed... (thoda zada ho gaya, but chalta hai)...
Jokes apart... it feels so different went whole family stays together ... i am saying this cos we are all are scattered now... so wen all of us (though we r only 4 in the family) meet after loooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggg time(the length of LONG, can make u u'stand after how long we get together) those days seems to the best days....

But as always partin away is painful ....
Last week was fun.. all four of were together,and we had fun and now suddenly e'one is gone,leaving me n mom alone at home, is bad...

AND ABOVE ALL IAM MISSING DAD n BHAI... and more of bhai.... :(

Little Manhattan!! amazing movie...

Day before yesterday night, my brother asked me to watch a Movie, though at the first palce i was reluctant watching that movie, cos i was already on my way to hit the half century for watching Sweet November .. but nevertheless, thought to give it a try...

The Movie was "Little Manhattan". and it said "Nothing's as big as your first love."

I thought to it to be a regular English Love story types!

But frankly telling you after watching this movie i was Charmed by this movie.. .

The movies is about a Child named Gabe, who falls in love with a girl, named Rosemary, who is his kindergarden classmate.... who meets him in his karrate classes...

And how two 11yrs old falls in love with each other .... but somewhere the guy is confused as his parents are about to divorce....

Its just tooo amazing the way director has plotted the story ...

the kids r too cute... and amiable...

Few amazing dialogues from the movie... wanna quote....

- Gabe, tells his father-- (talking abt love)- It was the pain that had no name. (and i was touched).

- Gabe: [thinking while standing with Rosemary and Ronny] Is there anything more excruciating than you and your date and your mom's date all hanging out with absolutely nothing to say?

Ronny: Don't do anything I wouldn't do, okay kiddo?

Gabe: Okay, that's more excruciating.

- Gabe: It's amazing how quickly time moves. Just yesterday, I thought I loved her, but now, I don't even care about her at all. ( vry true.. its a fact of life... we grown ups know it better, is'nt it .. )

- Gabe: Dad, what's the deal with girls? I mean, why are they the way they are?

Adam: You're talking to the wrong man.

Gabe: Well, how come all love has to end?

Adam: Let me tell you something about me and your mom. Once upon a time, we really loved each other, but as time went by, there just got to be all these things, little things, stupid things, that were left unsaid. And all these things that were left unsaid piled up, like the clutter in our storage room. And after awhile, there was so much that was left unsaid, that we barely said anything at all.

Gabe: Well, why didn't you just say them then, dad?

Adam: I don't know, Gabe. I kind of wish I had.

- Gabe: I couldn't escape them, all the little things I left unsaid, I was drowning in them. (i swear... wen there are so many things piled up inside u to be said... and u cant... u really go throught this... trust me am goin thru the same...)

They are just few of them... if i start,mentioning all, i think i'll type down the whole movie...

Its a must watch... i tell you such a sweet movie...

My 50th Post....

Hey! this is my 50th post...
chalo kahin toh (half) century bani....
So wanted to start with good note!!!

So for a start, nothing better than saying sorry to HIM .....

I upset him a lot........ and trust me i really didnt mean to hurt him at all... and i agree... It was all my fault,I just misunderstood every thing, and create a nuisance out of nothing...
I was upset and just worte e'thing in a go.. and i think i didnt realise i'll end up hurting him...
AM Really SORRY DEAR.. ( i hope u read my blog now)
Though i did said sorry so many times.. but just dont wanna miss any opportunity...
But again AM SORRY....
I wish things settle down ASAP...

Reply....

Just few lines reply on a comment made on my last Post...

"sach toh yeh hai kasoor apana hain

chaand ko chuune ki tamanna ki

aasamaan ko jamin par maanga

phool chaaha ki paththaron pe khilein

kaanton mein ki talaash khoshboo ki

aarjoo ki ke aag thandak de

barf mein dhundate rahein garmi

khwaab jo dekha chaaha sach ho jaaye

isaki humko saja toh milani hi thi

sach toh yeh hai kasoor apana hain"

Hope it answers all the questions........ :)

Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise... WOW !! well said!!

I just read the following lines and found tooo apt for me.. -
"A thing long expected takes the form of the unexpected when at last it comes."

It actually happened with me... i think the biggest problem with me is i expect a lot and give too much to the people who dont want it... nor they value or care ..... or even if they care, they dont want to show it off as may be they want to play it safe.....

TRUST ME THIS POST IS NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE... esp, for HIM... they r just my feelings which r penned here, no hard feelings...
I really understnd e'one has there own perspective and thinking.. and i respect those...
It was my mistake, i started to take his friendship in just another manner... i feel sorry now...

But wat abt me? my feelings... I knw wat, they are meant to be broken....
I agree with him, he doesnt want to commit and have some problems at his end..
But wat hurt me the most... was his one simple question," I hope u havent started to Love me.?"
till now i am just speechless and just tryin to figure out, Was'nt it was so obvious, tat all wat iam doing is just out of Love..."
Were'nt my posts were so evident, to tell him i love you... why i wud i have felt bad, if u were not answering my calls? not replying my messages? etc, infact e'one who read them knew i have strted likin s'one after years....
And he knew it well i just wrote them for him cos i was unable to talk abt it .... and even today he knows i'll write it all....

Just one question from you, which i wanted to ask but couldnt,(infact there are so many i wanted to ask but cud'nt,and now will never) "Does all our friends, or ones who doesnt love you, call you and ask have u reached home as its was raining heavily in ur city?" or "does any of ur friend who doenst love you, goes to the passport office,while its raining to ask weather one can get his passport, if he is not present in the town."
Ah !! may be he is tooo lucky to have such friends, i just had one friend who did so much for which i thought was out of friendshp, but later it happened to be his Love for me.... and till date i miss him.... and honestly that was the time stared to Blog....

But agan i'll say, it was not his mistake, i was being stupid tht i started to like him... and he just thought of me as good,caring n loving friend of his....
Though he never showed any interest in me, but i dont know how did this thing came into my mind that he also likes me.. and i started to dream things and strted to plan things at my end... how stupid of me...
But wat wud any other gal wud have thought, if a guy wud have approached thru a matrimonial site? and calls by himself to talk.. trust me i jus think i made fool of my self.. and now feeling hurt..
Ratna is rite, how much i knw abt him? since how long i knw him? and same goes for him !!
And honestly, i dot knw abt him but i told him e'thing abt me, my past, my present.... e'thing for that matter....

She asks me not to cry, and same he asked after asking me that stupid question "are u crying?"
wasnt that obvious that i will cry !! and trust me i cud hold myself in frount of him but just cud'nt hold my self wen called Rat's i cried.. cried like hell... and just cudnt speak a wrd... but iknw Rat's is s'one who can make out frm my Hello! over the phne, wat iam upto...
she has seen me in my all time low to all time happiness...

Today he told me that another friend of his was upset cos he told her tat he is going to see a gal for marriage thing, and she stopped chatting with him.. i think she also started to love him...
So one thing is clear, for a person who has so many options, why wud he restrict to one... and esp for a one who has nothing extra ordinary... am just like any other gal on this earth...

He suggests me, not to restrict my options to him.. i shud be practical... Ah!! i wish i cud do that... Dear i try hard to be practical but am unfortunately tooo emotional... and thats where i lack..
If i was practical, wud have been crying and jottin down things here.... and on top of it wud'nt have been waiting for you on yahoo.. inspite of knowing he'll not loging....

Its not that i love him like mads or s'thing like that .. i think am grown up frm that stage but ya i think he was kindda guy, i was lookin for ....
And now i think, there must be few of his other friends who might be thinkng like this... cos might be that basic him, which i(mistakenly) thought was only for me...

But koi na.... E'one learns a lesson,and i learnt too..
But one ting is for sure.... I'll wait for him... will not commit till wen, but y for sure till i can...
I knw this will make no difference to anyone ... but i told ma heart out...

Also i knw, my destiny and so called God is never with me... but still one last wish n one last hope...
Lets see wat happens!!

"The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."

But tht something or that s'one, has his own world and himself, he doesnt need me, for sure...!!

And inspite of knowing all,cant stop my tears rolling down!! going insane for sure...

but just dont knw why ma writin it all... just make him realise wat all is going at my end.. or am upset that in other part of this same world s'one is celebrating, there love gettin official soon... !!!

On my Nostalgia Trip....

Undoubtly i have become Orkut Fan .... and the biggest reason is .. i gotta find many of my bumchums... infact friend who were with me wen i was just 6-7 yrs old... or may be younger... and almost all my pals frm panki...
Its just gr8 to be in touch with them...

Like all, i had a wonderful childhood, and biggest reason was we use to live in a colony... the whole of vicinity was our house... be it as late as 11pm our parent never worried where we were.

Not all of us use to study in same school but ya we use to spend our evenings together... our evening use to start at 5:30 pm, by gathering at Club...
We use to ply Badminton, T-T, Khada Kho, Blank letters, Carrom, Chess...and our fav Dark Room... i still remember changing our pullovers in Winters to fool the,So called "Denner".
i use to be the most pamapered one ... kabhi koi mere ko den nahi banata tha.. meri place pe,it was always raja or rana use to be the denner... hehehehehhe.....
we use to play till 8:30 Pm and than choona's mom coming and scolding us to return our homes... phir ghar aake homewrk karna and than off to sleep...

Than wen we grew older, our club use to be the lovers point... and who is seeing whom use to be the hottest topic for gossiping... :P,

Today on orkut i happen to meet one of my friends frm Panki,and all those memories came bck to me ...
Just cant forget the Children day n husband's Day and Engineer's day celebrations... all these event have added so much to my personality, that today i dont have stage fear... iam not scared of public speaking, like many others of my age are..
i can dance almost on any tune.. be it western or classical... without any training..
and all this actually helped me in my MBA programme, my presentations use to be the best.. i use to represent my Dept. in different cultural Fest's ..
Till date i cant forget one compliment, which was given to me by HOD of Jaipuria Inst, after my Debate... it was a debate but for me it a extempore as the topic was given to just 10 mins before the event... and not to forget i bagged the 1st Prize... whoooooowhooooooooooo....
I am honestly not boasting abt my self, rather i want to put across that such events can change so much in ur life... and add so much to your personality...
We while staying in a colony have learnt to respect our elders,have learnt to respect all the religions, all castes n creeds....
i remember celebrating Eid n Baisakhi with equal enthu as Diwali or holi...
Anyone's wedding in the colony use to be like wedding in our House... and actually i enjoyed more in those weddings than my family weddings...

There is so much to share n write, but this space seems to be less....

to sum it up all... i just rem these lines...

"Yeh daulat bhi lee lo,

Yeh shaurat bhi lee lo,

Bhale cheen lo mujse meri jawani,

Magar mujhko lauta do, mera woh bachpan,

woh kagaz ki kashti, woh barish k pani.... "

And how can i forget to mention the times wen there use to be Power Cut ... and we use to play Antakshari at Rana's place....

WOW! kya din the woh....

"Aab jo kiye ho daata,aisa na keejo....."

I was watching "Umrao Jaan" (new one), with mom in the morning and realized all daughters are soo attached with there Dad's and same is with me ...
Me n dad will fight for hours and we will never agree.... if dad says left, i'll say right... but above all i love him a lot ... and miss him a lot... :(

heard the song in the movie... "Aab jo kiye ho daata, aage na keejo... aagle janam mohe bitiya na keejo..." and almost had tears in my eyes... and realised no matter how modern we become, girls are still considered to be "paraya dhaan",in other words Burden, it must be sounding too cliche but its true...
I can say it cos am going thru it ... i see my dad so worried for my marriage and things not happening, etc.. etc..
I dont know why Marriage for a gal is considered to be so important... a guy can stay bachelor till watever age he wants but for a gal, she needs to marry at a particular age...

i do u'stand there concern, as they stay in a society where people questions you again n again .. thats why i just hate this community or society affair....
even today if any of my realtives calls ther second question after hi-hello is "Aur Appu ki shadi kab kar rahe ho," and followd by 10 stupid gud for nothing proposals... ah! its so damm irritating...

And now talkin abt my irony... after years of my parents slogging, iam ready to settle but again have chosen a guy abt him am not sure....:( hehehheheh... i have told my parents abt my choice and whenever they find me chattin or talkin wid him they question, wat have u guys decided and am speechless and keep making stupid excuses.... and not to forget my mom keeps complaining to e'one that my daughter doesnt tell her anything... the other day my mamiji asked me -wt cooking btn me n HIM, and again i had nothing to say..

Y they dont u'stand even i dont know wat is in his mind....and am just fallen for him ... :(
just hoping this time my destiny doesnt plays back on me....

these lines of the songs were most touching....

"humare sajanavaa humaraa dil aisaa todan

woh ghar basaayan humakaa rasataa maa chhodan

jaise ki lallaa koi khilaunaa jo paave

do chaar din to khelan phir bhul jaave

ro bhi naa paave aisi gudiyaa naa ki jo

agale janam mohe bitiyaa naa ki jo -

jo ab kiye ho daataa aisaa naa ki jo

agale janam mohe bitiyaa naa ki jo"